Tumbled thoughts and tumbled sheets give way to my feet hitting the floor. It must be time to wake up! Through squinted eyes I give a glance to see that it really is 3:45am. Yet, I am stone cold awake, so no climbing back in bed for me. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. It has been a fast-paced week and my mind is finding it hard to slow down. But, the Lord already knows that. He has been ever present: He knows it’s time for me to wake up!
In less than a week my heart and mind had to do some fast adjusting to deal with several pop-up situations that required my immediate attention, which we all know happens from time to time. But, typically it doesn’t come in multi-layers. However, when it does we just need to recalibrate…right? Well, the only thing is, I haven’t had time. I haven’t had a chance to sit and process all that has been happening and that includes spending time with my Lord. So what did the Lord provide today at 3:45am? Time! Time to recalibrate, and time to be alone with Him.
You see, because He is ever present, He also knows everything that has been happening. And, because He knows and cares for each situation uniquely, His hand has been busy going before me and after me in ways I can’t even see, but I know is there. Even in the midst of feeling as if I’m in hyperdrive trying to take care of the details and unexpected circumstances, there has been peace. I feel at rest even when I haven’t had a moment to sit and rest.
And even last night, when I believed all my ducks were in a row before I went to bed, my brain did not get the message. It did not turn off the circuit-breakers. Have you ever had a night like that? A night when you know that your body really needs the rest, but your body and your mind are not synchronized, possibly because of adrenaline overload. But the Lord knows exactly how to get that harmony back in sync again. He knows every detail of our body, our mind, our soul and our life: He knows it all!
So this morning, when the darkness was still covering the dawn, He woke me up!
He knew what my heart was missing.
I just needed to sit and spend some precious alone time with Him.
Thank You for knowing me so well, and for being a good and faithful Lord!
O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave, you are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
Psalm 139:1-12 NLT